updated again!

woot! have been some time since ive updated my blog!

hmmm.. back from bintan, took up an extra new tuition job,end my samples job yest and birthday parties coming up! just had a conv wif baby just now, till now i feel quite bad bout it.

come to think of it, i really shld do something which can improve on myself and my future rather than keep gg out during freetime. but sometimes i just don like to be alone. i like accompany. by friends or anyone tt im comfortable with. i wished i could find a job related to my future career but i cant. im commited to tuition and i cant work during wkdays. tts why jobs tt i could only find is just wkend jobs and are totally unrelated to my current course.

im pretty worry bout my results. every day at a point of time i will think of it. haiz. got nth to do tmr. perhaps i shld just pack my stuffs and do some readings.

im feeling rather proud tt i did not spend tt much on clothes this month. but i spend on other stuff like entertainment, trip and presents! but seeing my baby so happy bout his bdae gift makes me happy too. there are more bdaes to come up.. wk and sx ones.. headache man!

back to e convo just now, i dunno why once in a while i will have a lot of thoughts in my mind. once again, u are my bestest bf ever. i understand u love me a lot, but sometimes i will have higher expectations perhaps of the influential of friends. i wished i wouldnt envy them so u won have e feeling of comparison. but u noe. its natural to feel tt way when u hear ur friends partner who just did something sweet. just like its just purely of me envying others but to u naturally its just comparison and pulls down ur esteem.

i know everyone of us have diff ways of expressing love, perhaps e way u express it is the 'unromantic' style. and once again, i must assure u im nt bored with u and neither do i ever pin pointing on ur wealth. im always enjoying e times with u, as long as we are together or even doin nothing. the point im trying to get across to u is tt surprising ur partner once in a while will spice up ur relationship and pulls us closer. im a girl and of cos i love the feeling of being loved and little things and efforts u put in to make me feel touched. this is wad every girl wishes in their partner isnt it? and ya. i do like surprises by my love ones. nice ones though.

i dunno if im contradicting myself but i just hope u get my point tt u are really not a BAD bf. i love everything of u and for who u are. just hope u can hold ur promises and make me the happiest girl on earth! i guess the last point is too demanding! gee.. but i dont care! :P

ps: are u the happiest and 最幸福的 man on earth?? ( i guess my effort is at 85%) lols.