stressssss

stress stress stress. all the stress accumulate tgt. my first paper is just one week away! omg. its so near near near. hmmm. the more papers i do e more panic i am, cos i got lots of questions dunno how to do! even though theres ans, i still cant figure out. hmmmm. i cant slp well properly everyday. i will have dreams everyday. and i just got a terrible one yest till i woke up in e middle of e night shocked. i shant reveal it.

i "think" its my pms. i really hate it. i couldnt control it. and ppl who are closest to me will kanna it. im so sorry darling. to make u pissed and sad. i just keep thinking of stupid stuffs. haiz.

recently i know we have been argueing and getting unhappy over the same stuff over and over again. just wanna let u noe sometimes i just want u to be there and shower me with more care and concern. especially during this kind of "CRITICAL PERIOD" i really will think a lot when i get to pms and i cant control my emotions a lot of times.

baby, thanks for tolerating me a lot and i know u have been trying to change. i like todays dinner like the way u do (: i feel we should really cont this way to allow our r/s take one step further. when both of us give in to each other it really makes a great diff to our lives.

regarding to ur probs. i understand ur situation. i dunno why ur parents will react this way. but. u must think, u are e one whos suffering. i noe uve been trying hard to hint them, if it doesnt work i think u shld try alternatives, open ur mouth. don let ego to hinder, somethings when u know u nd to get it done, just do it. And see what they say.

i know all men have ego, but it depends on each individual. Its gd to have ego. but certain things u nd to put down and do what u have to do. for example, if ur boss wants u to pour coffee for him, u still nd to do it, isnt it? u cant be just ignore wad he says. unless hes too demanding. same applies to r/s, i know friends who their bf got v great ego, they want their gf to listen to them everything. i feel its ridiculous la. cos in a relationship, each of us have own opinions and views, u cant expect one keep listening the other. if u want someone to keep obeying to u, go get a dog as ur gf. relationship is bout giving and taking, we must listen to each other opinions occassionaly though sometimes u don feel like doing it. only this will take e r/s further.

i hope this could apply to us as well baby. love love (: