sian

im falling sick.. intended to go zouk today. but i think better rest at home cos theres a lot of outings during wkends. i don wanna miss them..

recently i dunno y im feeling v moody. pms? so long still haven come. but theres pain.. ai ya.. kns. sometimes i just sian over small things. like my sec sch friends. i dunno y. they don seem to be enthu or bonded enough. everyone like don bother. im the one whos trying v hard to keep them bonded. suggested xmas present exchange in e end also got rejected. haiz. how i wish sometimes they were like my poly friends. fun loving and enthu.. perhaps tts the behaviour bw poly and jc life? nono i guess not.. perhaps ive changed a lot. last time i used to be like them.. hmmm.

sx ar sx.. i really miss u.. pig girl.. i still got 4 presents haven buy yet.. die alrd. no time.. and stuff to prepare too! argh.. my studies.. im worried..cf especially.. =( gonna rest early today.