I still do mind..

Lots of things to update. This shall be a v long post..

Firstly, tuition as usual on mon. the kid is v naughty and restless. keep complaining sleepy. really cant stand it at times. the money is low and yet i need to spend so much effort. have tots of quitting this assignment but i feel bad unless is i really cant tahan. i shall endure(:

tues met chris for dinner. forgot to take my hp. was dam scared tt i cant meet her. i am dam careless nowadays. *smack myself* lucky i still manage to met her at control. went to shop ard at raffles city and have our dinner at soup spoon. spend our photo taking session in the toilet at raffles city! dam freaking lame. but i really like the toilet. lol. after tt went home to see online updates for clothes. there was one top i already saw in another livejournal but i nv buy it cus its already sold. when i saw this top again i wanted to buy and its already pending. was v sian man!there were 5 msg when i chck my hp. and there was bad news whereby lijun cant book for me tt chalet. was v sad but i really must thank her for making the effort helping me book. after tt, my whole mind was swirling with chalet for the rest of the night. i check online whereby all the costa sands chalet was fully book! was dam freaking desperate as i really wanted a chalet badly. i have already planned like this starting of the yr and everything was ruin because of waiting for the reply of lijuns booking. i cant slp the whole night because i haven really tot of plan b if i cant book the chalet.

on wed, i called the costa sands chalet and was confirm everything was fully booked on 24th may and only the first wk of may was left for the wkend. i asked the contact no. for ecp chalet as i had no choice. lucky there were still slots for 24th may. i really feel dam relieved. although its ex, but i don really care cus i really wanted a chalet badly for my bdae. decided to make my booking on thur asap.

on thur, my mum and i set out once i woke up to book chalet. though the place was a bit lkk, but don care la, at least theres a place for my friends to stay over and have fun. make my $50 deposit and have lunch at hk cafe. the fried carrot cake was v nice. but the food there dam sinful. had a really heavy lunch tt day. but was v nice (: at night aft i came back from lessons i chck my email and realise tt the top i wan is available again! was v happy but i nd to make my payment by tmr 10am. and the time during tt time is like 11pm. was thinking whether i shld go tmr morning or now. den L talk to me. he help me make payment first as he had i banking. feel quite happy tt he offer help. i thank him and called him a while to talk to him. talking bout the treat i keep pestering him and saying him hes always busy and stuff. den he ask me decide a date to go out. actually it was nx wk but he sudd say tt wad bout tmr which is a fri? i happen to free on fri den i agreed. we decided to have dim sum at geylang whereby he claims tt its v declicious. after putting down the phone i was v happy. like thinking of wad to wear tmr and stuff.

on fri, went for tuition and ate a cupcake from my student. sweet of her and its v nice. aft tt meet L. he was a bit late but its ok. in end, we went to take bus. 147 came first and he claims tt the bus can go geylang. in e end it was wrong aft e bus past a few stops. we had to alight and take back bus 13 again! still nd to walk freaking far to e bus stop. aft tt we board the bus and alight at e wrong stop again. have to walk dam far. finally reach the place. we sat inside and he ordered most of the food. plus the CHA YE FAN. LOL. its bout 7 dishes. really a lot and he claims tt he can finished. in e end, i was the one whu survive the food. he was surprise tt i could actually eat a lot. haha. the food was fantastic and i feel the price is rather reasonable but my mum say its ex. the prawns and scallops were dam fresh and e zhu chang fen was v nice. especially the sauce. heavenly! he wanted to pay the bill intially but i faster make my payment first cus i don wan to break my promise to treat him. end up, i was really dam full aft tt heavy dinner. i still feel v full till i woke up the next morning! can u imagine how full i was!

after that, he sent me home and the bus was dam freaking full of ppl. no choice have to squeeze. and there was this myanma construction worker standing so freaking close to him! when i got to know wad happen, he was actually got molested. lol. the guy is like touching his butt? omg dam disgusting. lucky i'm nt standing at his position and he changed place wif me. show him some pics in my cam n he got to know cal likes me. was thinking to let him noe a not but in e end i just told him. tts all for tt day and i really enjoyed myself though it was a short time with him cus it has been ages since we've met up.

on sat i got lessons in e morning, feel v sian but no choice. L friend was in my lect and i make a fool out of myself whereby i mistaken his friend friends' name was gerald and i told L tt he got a friend call gerald cus i saw his name on the jersey. in the end, it was a soccer player name named GERRARD. the funny thing is t i pronounce the name wrongly and assume tt his friend is gerald. I guess his friend was like laughing his ass off! A few times i wanna say hi to him but he always sit so far and i'm also a bit shy to talk to him. aft lesson, L msg me say tt he was uneasy bout knowing tt cal likes me. hmmm.. i told him tt hes ur competitor and i have already told him i'm nt interested in cal le. cant really clique and stuff. yea and i suggest him to buy a cardholder if he cant get a coach wrislet. in the aft, went swimming with sotong and was really happy to meet her. like it has been so long since i saw her though its only a week. really miss her and lots of things to update. nv reallly swim as we got lots of things to update each other(:

Sun which is today, i went out wif my family to visit my grandpa in e morning at CGH as he got an accident whereby the water pipe burst and the water splash to e top of the ceiling and e board fell on his body. lucky was not serious. aft tt meet chris again to do shopping. spend my 100 dollars taka voucher on a shuemura blusher, a paul and joe brush, bathroom slippers and dads waterbottle. after tt shop ard and went to coffee bean to have cheesecake and tiramishu. cheesecake was fantastic but tiramisu is alright. went to coach boutique at dfs but it was still the same old thing. no wrislet tt i like. guess he would buy a cardholder instead for me.

at night met jo and sx for dinner. the curry was dam nice.. especially the potato! so soft man. hahah. leo was there too. learned texas poker today. quite a nice but addictive game. aft tt have girls talk in her rm. talk bout L and stuff. which makes me think of stupid things again. jo show me the email. sometimes i feel tt guys are weird creatures. always confused ppl. don wan to contact den don contact. sudd contact her aft for so long.

alright. wad is on my mind now is me L chris and jim were gg genting. wad sx feels tt it was no gd cus i don really noe him. but i really wanna go there since ages ago, just tt my friens nv really organise it due to some reasons. since he has free tics now, why not? i do admit tt i go partly because of him but i also want to go there enjoy myself man! and chris will be joining me too. obviously she will share rm wif me and he and jim in another rm. however, wad sotong told me confused me again. i will asked my mum again.

leo ask me a qn if he really wants me to be his gf will i accept it. i will accept it until everything is clear up not like now. whereby i am still rather confused now. i noe both sx and jo does not have gd impression of him. even wk too. yea he sort of cheated or hiding things from me in e past. but i really dunno y i forgiven him so easily aft a while. i am really v angry at first and promised tt not to contact him or talk to him anymore. another thing is tt hes secretive bout his things, probably he wans me to have a gd impression of him? at times i will questioned myself whether he really likes me or just playing with my feelings only? if i really find out tt u are really a player or wad, just f off as far as possible. and this time i will NOT give u a chance anymore.

Another thing is tt i still mind bout height issues. no doubt tt he is still shorter than me by a bit. i still do mind. and yea he looks old. though physical appearance is not v important to me, but i still DO MIND. like jz, i really do mind a lot of height issues, and i really did promised myself my next bf i must find one whu is at least taller than me. i really suffered a lot because of this prob. tt is why i really still do mind.

the next thing is bout his background, wad his family is doing, i feel its not right man. wads e pt of being rich whereby the money is not earn thru proper means? i wld rather u to have some normal jobs whereby u wldnt worry of so much things.

And yea.. all these things makes me feel v confused. even though he might not know tt i noe a lot bout his background and stuff, all these things still takes into account if i am getting tgt with him. However, the reason tt i have gd impression of him or have feelings for him is tt he makes me feels v comfortable when talking to him. and he knows to make me happy and cheer me up like crack jokes etc. if i do not know so much "bad" things bout him, i will probably think tt hes perfect in terms of character and personality not physical appearance lah.

lastly, i would say tt i will look for the one whu has husband but not bf criteria like wad jo have said. its v true as i feel tt i'm nt really v young anymore. i should really find the right one whu can really take care of me and understand me as well has a mature thinking. i also have not much years to date and stuff as i feel tt in order to get married there is a min of 5 years of dating. if there isnt the right one now, i shall wait, i believe tt he would appear in my life one day. meanwhile i will enjoy my single life!!

* i don want to think of him anymore but i just cant do it!